Emotional

Why must I be so...
When I want to say yes and I still say no
When my body's walking away, but I don't want to go
But you can look at me and I'll smile because I hate to show
That I'm so...
Just so...
And the smallest thing might hurt my feelings
But I hate to lose that control
And even more so I hate revealing
Well you know
That I'm so...
Just so...
Sometimes it's temporary
Like the quick rain showers of Orlando
Sometimes it's so much worse
And the flood gates burst...
I wish I knew how to deal with it
After 21 years you'd think I'd know...
But I don't.