New Blog

I was just looking back through some old posts and decided I should probably leave this blog as it is and start a new one for who I am now. I'll probably copy over the 2026 things that I've posted here already, and maybe archive them from here... we'll see...and with that, peace out IamMouse...

Outing with Big Brother

13 June 2026

Jump rope: 6min total (30/30 x 12)
Hindi: none today
Yoga: none today
Insight: I can take 15min each day just to jump rope. It doesn't have to be when I wake up or after work. I just have to do it each day.

I went with Amar to the Square Enix Cafe in downtown LA. I bought him a Vivi plush that he was looking at but put back because he said it was too expensive and he was also buying some other things. It's his birthday on Monday, and I know he appreciated it. I ate this grey curry that was Dragonquest Metal Slime themed. It tasted like a normal curry. I enjoyed it. The Slime drink was pretty tasty.

We went through some gasha-pon shops in Little Tokyo before heading to Del Amo mall. I grabbed a Kaiju No. 8 crewneck jumper and Princess Mononoke quarter zip at Box Lunch (clearance buy 1 get 2 free!!) Also got the PM quarter zip for Chris. Grabbed a mochi donut before heading home. 

Gonna watch a show and eat dinner, then maybe do some reading before bed. I'm enjoying "City of Brass" quite a bit. I've noticed that these sorts of books feel like watching a movie or a show in the way that I imagine the events and the characters. I don't necessarily "see" them, but I feel like I experience it in my brain in a similar way somehow...

Well, that's it for today. 

Peace n stuff,
Dojo

Growth Journal Idea

 I was recommended for a simple "Growth journal" to use this format, and I think I like it:

June 11, 2026
Jump rope: 6 minutes
Hindi: Reviewed lesson 3
Yoga: 10 minutes
Insight: I keep treating hobbies like obligations instead of companions.

This particular one above ^^^ is NOT true or accurate. Just an example.

I feel like I should do something like this everyday right here; either above or below my general journal entry.

I didn't jump rope today. I was planning to, but after work I took a nap, and I really needed to just rest.

I had my Hindi lesson, which was great. It's raining a lot in Delhi today, so we just used whatsapp instead of the tutoring website. I'm not entirely sure why I'm not being specific about the details. Maybe for a sense of mystery or privacy or something. Something to think about later maybe.

Oh my gawd, I just fixed my darn cursor. It always disappears inside of text boxes. I just went into the customization per google search, and changed it to the inverted cursor. So much better...

Back to your regularly scheduled journal entry...

My tutoring session was insightful. I'm picking up on certain phrases more than others, and have a fairly good understanding of what I'm being asked most of the time.

I did some general stretching, no yoga.

I forgot to finish this on Friday, and it's Saturday now... o_O ah well...

Coming Back

I can't believe blogger still exists and hasn't been redeveloped into some overly complex platform for likes and views and analytics and ads. I loved this place. And here I am again...

Today, I came home from a fairly good day at work. It was not a particularly easy day, but also not very tough either. I'm happy with that. Sometimes the most uneventful days, though appreciated for not having to hold in frustration over team members' lack of maturity, or run across the warehouse to solve some big jam or problem (which I enjoy sometimes), can be quite boring, unsatisfying...and such other words.

But yea, work was alright today. I came home looking forward to my language tutoring lesson, but my tutor wasn't feeling well. I did end up wrecking my brain a bit trying to figure out how to reschedule the lesson without cancelling and losing out on the session, though it seemed unusually easy to mess up and lose out. Once that was solved (which is still technically not entirely solved because my tutor never responded about what day/time would work for him), I got lost trying to organize some things in my life, as one does. Balancing my spiritual journey with my physical health goals, and I managed to come up with some goals for the next 6 months:

Jump rope comfortably for 15-20 minutes,
Have a consistent yoga practice,
Keep up with my Hindi lessons,
Feel more awake while reading.

With this, I feel like I'll be able to feel more alive in my life, and more present. I've been going through my days half asleep, literally. I'm SO tired / low energy / fatigued ALL THE TIME, and the last I spoke with my doctor about it, and did some blood tests, I was normal. All around healthy as far as those tests could tell. I do plan to get tests done again soon. 

Topic hop: I've found that I struggle to consistently read anything non-fiction. At least, anything that I thought I'd be interested in. So for now, I'm sticking to my fiction stuff until I'm not dosing off within 10 minutes of reading.

So, after those goals were set, I went outside and jump-roped for a total of 6 minutes (12 30-second intervals with 30-second rests in between). It's a decent start.

I did about 15 minutes of yoga: 3 sets of sun salutations.

I showered, cooked dinner, ate while reading "The City of Brass" by S. A. Chakraborty, and I crocheted a little frog for my god-daughter. I hope she likes it. I'm really proud of this one. 

It's the purple one in the picture. The ninja one is pretty funny. Color changes aren't too difficult. The green one is for my cousin. The pink one looked like it had a mustache, so I made it a black shirt, and it became the French frog. I just need to source a small red scarf for him.

The purple one, if not obvious, is based on Rumi from K-Pop Demon Hunters. Here you can see the braid better. I'm really happy with how it came out. :D

And I ended my day with some bourbon biscuits and a glass of oat milk. Off to lay in bed and read some more as I dose off. Until next time!

-- Dojo

To Mom and Dad

This started out as something entirely different, and then it transformed into what is written below...

I spend so much time doing me
I hardly have time for you
I know you know it's nothing personal
Not what I mean to do

And I know you understand
Cause' you've been through this all before
Yea, you've witnessed this and more
Through your sickness, health, and for

As long as I can remember
You've made it through it all
With grace and poise and dignity
You taught me how to fall

And rise again tomorrow
Through darkness, shine, or rain
I hope one day when I have kids
I can teach them to do the same

Cause though you were years ahead of me
I'm walking in your steps
And you showed me what you learned from life
So I know what to expect

I wouldn't be where I am today
If you hadn't shown me how to
And I'm still not entirely sure
How I've continued on without you

Because that day was inevitable
And it's painful to put to words
You were more than the parents I needed
You were the parents that I deserve

- Bruce

Dream: Military Locker Room

I had this dream last night:

so, the dream starts with me on a bus with a bunch of people. some i know. some i've never seen before. of the people i know, there's Julia from work and a few of my friends from middle school and high school: rochelle, joanna, randi, and some that i knew their faces but couldn't remember their names

we arrive at a compound place with fences and flags and tanks and stuff
that's when i realize we all enlisted i nthe military
then i got excited

the dream skipped to the beginning of our training, we had temporary lockers in this little room where we put our stuff and got dressed in these dark blue khaki pants and white shirts like the breathable athletic type
and we had finger-less gloves. i don't remember much what we did once we got out into the pretend city that was set up

just lots of fake explosions and getting really dirty

then we went back to the locker room where they gave us the combinations to our new lockers in the main locker room, which was like a giant maze city of lockers

they even had gangs based on what your locker aisle or area was

my locker was 324

so i went looking for it, but the lockers weren't really in order.
they were in the general numbered area you'd expect but then you had to really search for the locker after that by looking at each one at a time.

so i put my stuff in my locker finally and went to go shower as new clothes was brought to each locker area, just piles of different sized shirts and pants and then the shoes were labelled with our names on the bottom like completely customized shoes.

when i was coming back from the shower i was just in more blue pants and white shirt because my new clothes hadn't arrived yet. i noticed this one girl following me. she was like a female version of that small leader kid in Ender's Game. white tank top, long pointy nose, dark black slick hair. and angry eyebrows.

eventually she came up to me all aggressive with these 2 big black girls on either side of her. she told me stop looking at her so i apologized and kept going back to my locker (which i had no idea where it was. i was pretty lost i nthe maze locker room)

the pointy nose girl tried to trip me but i brushed it off and kept walking. i think her name was priscilla

she got really mad and one of the black girls grabbed me from behind

then a girl that was hanging out up top of the lockers said "don't fret kid, she just likes you."

then priscilla got really red and angry and stormed off

she was embarrassed

i just said thanks and left to go find my locker

i swear i was searching everywhere. everything looked the same. the room was full of girls and clothes scattered everywhere.

then suddenly i was grabbed up by some more big girls and brought to this one area that looked like the locker room was turned into a post apocalyptic camp site

they brought me "inside" the area through a makeshift gate and there sat julia as the "leader" of this particular gang

she wanted something from me but i had no idea what and when i wouldn't hand it over they were going to do something to me but i ran before they could and she chased me

it was crazy running from her. i eventually had to jump up on the lockers and crawl through this vent to the other side of the locker room and jump out. then they gave up chasing me

i also fiiiinally found my locker again and got my new clothes and shoes and put them on. i felt like a badass

then my friends met up with me as well and people were high fiving me and i didn't understand why

then julia came out and i was going to run but then she smiled and gave me a hug and said welcome to the gang and gave me a patch. then the bell rang for us to get ready for training more and i woke up

I Am Not Unlimited...Yet

It's hard for me to say no to someone in need of my help when I know that I am able to help them.

I feel like I'm Earth and people are not only picking my fruits, but not watering the plants they get them from AND they aren't even eating the fruits.  They're just tossing them on the ground or something...

No, this isn't about actual fruits...

How do you show people that you aren't an infinite resource, but still be able to help them?

Especially when you rely on the result of the help you give them?

How do you change a situation that you can't leave and can't adapt to?

Ugh headache >_<

Peace n stuff,
Mous3