Super Hero Picture

I don't know why I like this picture of me so much...

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.

The E in Bus

So I'm on the bus riding home and this guy gets on and sits across from me. I tend to make eye contact with people very often on the bus so, him being a person on the bus, this was no exception. He keeps eye contact a little longer than most. He doesn't turn away. I turn away. I already know how the next 20 minutes will go. He'll keep looking at me 'til I make eye contact again. I will. I'll smile being polite. He'll take it as me thinking he's cute. He's not a bad looking guy. He catches eye contact again and leans forward and kind of waves. I take out my earphones and he asks me how long it is 'til Slauson. I tell him to get a little map and look because I really don't know. He nods. He's not done. I go back to my music. He asks me where I'm from. They always do. I amuse him and answer his many questions followed by compliments. I say thank you as always. He's 24. His favorite color is green. He works in a cafeteria downtown. He doesn't speak English well. And he's from Guatemala. I don't remember what his name is though. Then of course! he asks me for my number. I apologize. "Sorry." "No? I just want to be your friend and text you sometimes." -_-# "Alright...give me your number then." He gives me his number. His name is Ervin. We arrive at Slauson. I figure he probably won't keep up texting me for very long so I text him. He shakes my hand and gets off the bus. Tells me I'm hermosa for the hundredth time. I thank him. I get to my stop and get off the bus. He texts in spanish. Oh geez. Of course he does. His English isn't so great. I reply to the best of my ability. My spanish isn't so great. He tells me that he would like to have a girlfriend like me. I tell him I'm sorry. He says it's ok and that I'm pretty. I say thanks and make a comment on the fact that it's starting to rain. Nothing else. I'm amused.

Trusis,
Nasia

Random Rant Again

"i wish i could record the things i say sometimes. i think i'd blow my own mind"

So, yea I just said this and now I'm quoting myself again, right after I just finished ranting on something else. Who cares?! It's my blog :P But for serious, if someone talked to me the way I talk to people, I'd think they were a total weirdo...or I'd be like OMG you understand me! No one understands me. And I don't mean that in the emo-OMG-I-want-to-die-because-no-one-understands-me kind of way. I just mean that too often when I talk people are like wah? That's the joy of being Plutonian I guess. And I suppose a lot of the things I say are recorded right here in this blog. But if you heard me explain something in Nuke right after I just finished explaining how I'm from Pluto or what I do to fall asleep at night, you'd be like, are you the same person? My mind travels through a different set of freeways than most people. They're so busy going in a straight line. Break the 4th dimension and travel through time, space, color, light, EVERYTHING! If in your mind you have no limitations, in the real world, you have even less, because your first REAL limitation is yourself. :P

Trusis,
Nasia

Fall and Rise

"Never will I allow someone to crush me so hard that I cannot get back up. Even if I did allow them to, never would they be able to for I was built too strong, too tough, and too stubborn." -Me :P

They say to love someone is to give them the ability to destroy you, but trust that they will never do it. I believe this is true. I also believe that though I might give someone the ability to do such a thing, no one but the people that created me can destroy me. Twice I have risen from this "destruction."

WARNING!!: TOTAL TANGENTAL RANT AHEAD!!

Life is like the Jesus Stairs...you want to get to the top and you climb and climb and climb, but you always feel like you're still on that first step. A lot of people give up and take the trail back down before they even get halfway there and some people are so close to the top, but they "just can't make it"and take the trail back down. Sometimes just that extra mental effort, that internal push to keep going, will give you all that extra physical strength you need to make it to the top. To simply believe that you have worked hard enough and deserve a break will not get you what you want. No matter how much you think you've done already, you won't actually have done enough until you have what you want in your hands. God won't give you a house because you make enough money to buy one. You have to go find that house, find the owner, pay him, etc. That's all a part of earning the reward. You can't just plant the seed and think that's enough. Plant it, water it, climb the tree, and pick your orange. But wait! You still can't eat it until you peel it. Those other steps are all a part of the journey. Though small and seemingly insignificant, they mean a lot in the end. And many times you might feel you've reached the point where there's nothing else left for you to do and you wonder where your reward is. I think that's the point where God is merely trying to teach you that you can't expect your reward to just appear after you've taken the steps to get there. You now need to learn some patience. Like baking a cake. You've got all the ingredients. You've mixed them. You even milked the cow yourself and raised the chickens for their eggs. Now, where's your cake? You have to put it all in the oven and WAIT! You can't rush the cake. Only a cake baked at 450º for exactly 15 minutes* will be perfectly moist with no traces of burns. It's the way things have to be. I don't make the rules. Hell, I could be wrong about the rules, but so far, these seem to work for me. Sometimes I make mistakes and take the cake out too soon or not soon enough and end up with mush or something close to an edible brick. All you can do is try again. If you learn from your mistakes and keep at it, you'll be a professional baker one day. Who knows? God knows. :P

And I'm not trying to be crazy religious with this stuff. I believe that all religions are probably true to some degree. I don't read the bible or the koran or do chants or daily prayers or go to church all the time or anything of the sort. If you don't believe in God, maybe you believe in Buddha, or Zeus, or the Flying Spaghetti Monster, or whoever. Maybe you don't believe in any omnipotent being. That doesn't matter so much as your belief that you have the ability to be and do anything. You could even fly if your belief in gravity wasn't so strong.

Trusis,
Nasia :P


*(Temperature and time are not accurate. They're just to help prove my point.)

A Folder

On my laptop exists 2 folders. Both folders contain very similar items. Images. Pictures I have found from all over the internet that make me feel good about love. I'll randomly run across a cute little message and save it to that folder. It's a sort of scrapbook. Looking at it now, it's overflowing with different ways to say how much you care, and I have used them before to express feelings that I myself couldn't put words to. I just ran through some of them again and I feel like one day I will open one of these folders again and find some of these pictures and send them to someone special and they will reply "I was thinking that same thing." And I'll smile. And I'll mean it. And they'll mean it. Can't it just be that simple? I tell someone "I think you are magic" and they reply "Well of course. How else would I get someone like you to appear?" And they'll smile. And I'll smile. And things will just be as they are. I will love them and they will love me and things will just be happy. There will be rough times and we'll get through them, always knowing that no matter what, we've got each other and we're happy. They'll turn over in the middle of the night and out of nowhere just say thank you. And I'll ask for what and they'll just smile and snuggle close and go back to sleep. I'll find this one day. Or better...it'll find me. You reap what you sow and I sow a lot of love. I suppose this plant just takes a while to ripen...

Trusis,
Nasia

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.

Most treasured? Item? I'm gonna stick to physical possessions with this one and say:

My Lappy Toppy

It's one of the first pictures I ever took of it ^_^