Friday, March 30, 2012

Life

is too short for anger and tears.

Too fast for closed eyes and closed ears

Life takes what it wants and doesn't return

And it rarely ever gives you what you truly deserve

But something about life tells us it's worth it

Running in all direction though our destination is predetermined

We're burning with life from the day we're born

If you're not busy living, what are you breathing for?

Life's too short to hold on to fears and regret

The things you put out determine the things you get

And if you make it to one point what's to stop your from rising higher

Every downfall's a minus but every step up is a multiplier

If you're not going forward, you're falling behind

There's only one button buddy, and it's not rewind.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

A Prayer



Lord,

You have never steered me wrong.

In your hands I lay my heart.

With your help I will be strong.

From me, this pain shall part.

I put all my trust in you.

And I will worry no longer

Whatever you ask, I'll do.

For you make me stronger.

And Lord I know I'm a sinner

Forever grateful for your forgiveness

I need you now more than ever

To help cure this world of sickness

Not colds Lord I mean hate

I know you see it from your seat above

I'm not trying to spread the faith

Just want to infect the world with love

Lord I see you taking your angels home

A few you've accepted from my family

I know they sit beside you on your throne

I know they greeted you happily

Their lives put hope in the fallen

And their love for this world was immense

Lord I'm following their calling

So let's let this healing commence

My heart and soul are at your fingertips

I know they're only mine to borrow

So let them be like cargo ships

And bring love to this world of sorrow.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Sugar Sync

Ehhhh..

It's like dropbox I suppose.

I have yet to try it fully, but it sounds cool.

You start with 5gb of space and get 500mb for each person you add. Perty nice.

Click Me :)

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Method of Happiness

If you want to be happy, there will be people that don't agree with your method of happiness...


to be continued...

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Decisions

Why do we make the choices we choose to make?

...

In the past few months I've learned one very strong lesson: You only have one life and it isn't promised.

You have to live your life the way you want to live it because you only get one so far as we know.

In the past few days I've made a few choices that some people look down on me for.

(I have to remember to come back to that statement for some detailed ranting.)

I have one life and I do all that I can to be happy in this very moment. My decisions now may or may not cause regrets later, but who knows if I'll even be around later to regret those decisions?

I choose to do what I want to do and I don't let anyone hold me back from my desires because this is MY life.

If I make a mistake I'll suffer for it and I move on.

I didn't get on this "pedestal" from holding back.

Today I heard a very great quote. "All progress is due to the unreasonable man."

If my logic is unreasonable to you, then so be it. It has brought me to great places.

I'm pretty sure lot's of people think God is unreasonable and look what he has done...

Da Vinci, Einstein, all of those "crazies" that are now magnificent.

My point...what was it...it doesn't matter.

God has taken many angels from my world;

Most of them in the past few months.

And I know they lived their lives doing what made them happy no matter what anyone else thought.

They took responsibility for their mistakes and always lived for the here and now.

If this is what will make me happy right now, then this is what I will do.

And I know that I have a huge family and lot's of friends full of support for everything I decide to do.

I can't help but feel like God is taking all his brightest lights to shine back before this year is over.

RIP Jayla and Gilani Taylor, Angelica Goins, and Ten Vazquez. <3






Monday, March 12, 2012

Heart-Headed

I think that's what people meant to say when the term "hard-headed" came about.

We fall and fall and fall, yet we never stop to think "Maybe this isn't a good idea. I'm going to stop."

And even if we do think that, our hearts quickly take over and make us do what it wants to do.

Even after following all the things I told myself I would follow,

My heart will still have it's way.

I'm stubborn.

My heart is stubborn.

"It's crazy how your heart just has a mind of its own." - Luke James

Yes, yes it is crazy.

...

<:3 )~
Mous3

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Who Is Mous3?

Mous3 is...

a hard-working woman

with a loving family

and friends galore.

She's got love for days;

For centuries.

Mous3 is 5'3" on a good day

Probably weighs about 105 lbs.

She claims to be from Pluto.

It's true.

She's brown.

Brown hair.

Brown eyes.

Brown skin.

Brown.

Her favorite color is currently grey...

...She thinks.

She loves to knit, learn, write, sing, play guitar, spend time with family and friends, play outside, read instructables, inspire people, advise people, listen to new music, create new music, troubleshoot things, help people with their troubles, come up with new ideas for random things, watch magic tricks, drink jones soda, eat cookies, play cards, cuddle her cat, look at pictures of kittens and puppies, talk nonsense, make fun of her closest friends, sleep on the floor, color...

That list is long

She is constantly growing

And learning

About the world around her

And the world in her...

(The point of this whole blog?)

Mous3 lends out her hand to anyone she trusts

Mous3 trusts easy

She loves her job.

She's a game artist.

She has a Bachelor of Science in Computer Animation.

She's turning 22 this year.

She wants to travel.

Her heart has been broken many times.

Probably not as many times as a lot of people her age.

Maybe just as much.

Money does not motivate her in any way.

She handles it well.

She loves her body

Though she usually thinks she needs to gain a few pounds.

She wants to give blood.

She never weighs enough...

Or her heart rate is strangely high...

And therefore cannot give blood.

She feels like she has a bigger purpose in this world.

She hates greed and money.

Mous3 forgives.

Probably too easily.

She believes in a God.

All Gods.

But not the bible so much.

She wants to live a simple and satisfying life.

She hopes to learn many languages and have children one day.

She hopes they have the hunger to learn like she does.

She wants to be a teacher one day.

She loves math.

Ask her for Algebra help.

She loves it.

She accepts most challenges.

As long as she believes she can get over them...

Even if she can't YET

She believes she can do anything she puts her mind to.

She does everything she puts her mind to.

Those things don't always turn out as planned.

98% of the time they work out well.

She believes she was put on this planet to help shine a light in the dark places of certain lives.

She's tired now and doesn't want to continue this entry anymore.

Goodnight.


<:3 )~
Mous3

Done

What are words?

They are a collection of letters, sounds, vibrations.

They are recognized patterns that we have given meanings to.

Everyday we trade these patterns in exchange for other patterns.

Attached to some of these patterns and vibrations are feelings.

What are feelings?

They are hormones.

Biological triggers.

We hear a certain word or pattern of words and a feeling is triggered.

Some feelings stronger than others.

Yet, it's even deeper than that.

We need the vibrations from a particular source for the particular feeling to be triggered.

Take the words "I love you."

Strong words. Right?

Sure.

If the right person says them.

Let's say, this right person says a lot of things.

You believe this person.

Because you have no reason not to.

Well, maybe you do have reasons.

Your past.

But this person is new.

Everyone deserves a chance to have a clean slate.

Past set aside.

You believe their words.

They speak them so well.

You let go of your past beliefs.

Maybe...

Just maybe...

This one is for real.

...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPEEEE

Pattern after pattern.

Vibration hits ear drum.

Hormone triggered.

Heart beats faster.

But it's a pattern.

...

Heartbreak.



WORDS.

I'm tired of them.

Prove to me that there is more to them than just vibrations and recognized patterns.


<:3 )~
Solo Mouse

Monday, March 5, 2012

Giving

Sometimes I wonder if I give too much, if there's such a thing as giving too much, and if there is, how much is too much, how do you know you're giving too much, and how do you NOT give so much, especially if you're already giving so much?

I also wonder if I don't take or ask for enough; do I demand too little and not get what I "deserve", and how do you know what you deserve. I'm told I don't take the credit for things I do. I don't always feel right about taking it. I guess that's also why I don't buy myself much.

I just do what I can when I can for whoever I can for this reason: If I can, and it helps, then why not?

There was a time I didn't even know if people took advantage of it because I'm always so willing to give and help. I didn't really care either. It never bothered me.

Now, I really don't feel like doing stuff sometimes. It's rare, but it happens. Problem? I feel selfish for not feeling like doing it when I'm completely capable and there's no reason not to do it beside that I don't feel like doing it.

I know so many people that can just take and buy and brag without feeling bad about it. I don't feel like they're being selfish for it though.

Why are there so few people that think like this? Who's supposed to help me understand when I'm helping everyone else?

I've always been the one explaining these things to myself...